stream this song | back to album page | back to homepage | buy this album on itunes | watch the ASL video! My God! Track 7 from "My God!" by proGrammar Born an agnostic to an atheist mom; dad was an Easter-Christmas Christian. Never liked listenin' to those kids who's dissin'. Sayin' I's going to Hell. Shit, that's my mission, now! Now, listen how this bitch-born cow starts proselytizing me + my bro while babysittin'. "Now, babies, listen...," she started plantin' seeds about the evil outcome of our evil deeds. "You're gonna go to Hell." "Yeah, we heard that one." "But, you ain't heard this one...," bitch started having mad fun describing in the most egregious detail about the things Demons do to kids who go to Hell. At the age of 5, I didn't wanna be alive no more. Yo, my eyes was opened wide to the fact that this life connotes an after-life. Forcing a choice, make you hope for half a life. To choose + commit like a boy'll ask a wife. Winning or losing? No control, so pass the dice. I toss 'em down the deepest, darkest well which I can find, and try and pay 'em no mind. But I find as soon as I turn, they chill my spine; able to exert control at a distance by design. This game defines our plane of existence, whether or not we choose to witness. Braniac or witless, we're on the shit-list of our Common Creator, Its unwitting mistress. Getting fucked in the ass in this pass/fail class we call "Life", with no chance for extra-credit. I didn't used to get it, in fact found it pathetic, that these kids'd try + act so clean like Ayyurvedic. But now, watch me sweat it. I can't afford to let it get away from me, 'cause this could be the last day for me! I can't believe I hope you'll pray for me! Just like I pray for you, 'cause this is all we can do. Forced to decide which of these lies is true. And they disguise it, too, these proponents with their motives. Eyes shine bright with fervor like two votives. Railroading non-believers like locomotives. Not to increase the peace, but more their quotas of attendance, 'cause the penance pays the tithe. 10% of the rest of y'all lives, and I've... Yo, I'm not even trying to go there, man. There's good + bad people in religion, just like everything else. I guess... what I'm trying to say is... Oh, well, I guess it would be nice if I could touch Godbody, 'Cause I know not everybody can touch the body that's true. Oh, but I gotta think twice before I give my faith away. Can't help but think of yesterday, and all these dudes who would tie me down to an orthodox rule... My God! You gotta get into this... My God! I gotta realize It's this... My God! It's gotta be close to me, makin' the most of me. Hopefully doin' what I'm s'posed to be... My God! I gotta get into this... My God! You gotta realize It's this... My God! I never can lose since I never can prove what I know couldn't ever be true... "So, what is 'My God'?," the attentive ask. My God is mine in the first + last. A relationship which could not be verified even if I desired, no matter how I tried. Peace!... stream this song | back to album page | back to homepage | buy this album on itunes | watch the ASL video!